Sideways

I keep waking up

sideways

as the light blazes

into my eyes

orange behind

these sleepy lids

and I stretch like

a little kid.

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I had a dream

that my room

was a tent

and it was filling with water

again

and

again

I abandoned my home

swam to shore

and it was over

as I sat among

the Venus flytraps.

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I had a dream

with all the wrong people

the ones that

I let

hold me back

the ones I allow

to make me feel like crap.

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I had a dream

things

were different

and I wasn’t codependent

love

did not need

and love

did not need to be

pined for.

I had everything

I thought I wanted

and more.

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No wonder

I keep waking up

sideways.