Night Climbs

tired of tweaking my back
night climbs high on the track
had a dream my family was lost to the flood
mourned their deaths then saw them at home
second chances
I seem to get them more and more
these days
is it something to extend?
trying to keep an open heart
where it counts
the wrong men keep falling in love with me
and God knows I want it when it's right 
but can I live the discipline
the sacrifice?
I keep finding myself relieved 
to be alone at night 
not having to explain myself 
or fight 
off advances from men who seek only 
to devour me
growing pains in new places
but this is just an injury